Of Resolutions and a Year to Come
January 2nd, 2010 by AndyFirst I would like to take this opportunity to wish each and every one of you a very happy new year, and much luck with your pursuits during this year to come. For me, this past year has been filled with many, many triumphs and learning experiences. Some of these I have shared, and some I have not, but at this point I wish to share my thoughts on how I will be approaching this new year, as well as how you might do the same. I had hoped to write this article before last year ended, but this year I found it hard to decide upon my own resolutions until tonight. So I will share this with you even if it is more than a day late.
A year ago I wrote that I wasn’t sure how much I would have to share as there were two major events I needed to take care of. Three months later, I had conquered both of those, but still I found my ability to share new material with you difficult as I had a difficult time finding new material for myself. Tonight, however, I come to you with a full report on my progress over the last year, the things I have learned, as well as my resolutions for the next year.
Over this past year, I have overcome 2 major issues of my own, only to find myself confronted by additional issues which I have been striving to beat down. Perhaps one of the largest issues I have dealt with is depression. Despite all of the gains I have made, the overall change in me has been small, and at times I have allowed that to get to me and hinder my progress. Up until last weekend, I still found it very difficult to talk to strangers unless they first talked to me. Last weekend, I had a little party, got way too drunk, ended up at a bar with a friend, and spontaneously become the life of the party. Somehow, after that, everything has seemed a bit easier for me, though not as easy as I would like. I did come to a very important conclusion though.
That night showed me that subconsciously I know how to use everything that I have learned over these past few years. My self-esteem is probably the highest it’s ever been in my entire life, and much better than most people I know. However something still holds me back. That something is uncertainty. I still fear what I don’t know and perhaps this is a good thing, or maybe bad. Certainly when I am working, it is good. Without my fear of it, I wouldn’t seek as hard as I do to clear it up and find true answers. When it comes to my life however, it limits me, and the one way I have found to clear it up is through practice.
So now I know I must practice what I already know how to do in order to become comfortable using it. This will take time as my opportunity to use it is few and far between, but I will persevere. So this brings us to my resolutions for this wonderful new year.
My first resolution is to start making better use of my idle time. There are many things that I “never have the time to do” yet I spend many hours doing things that are not productive in any way. Some of this is unavoidable due to other responsibilities, but I am going to work to better organize my life such that I get the most out of my time.
Secondly I’ve resolved to not only date more this year, but to find myself potential wives. I’ve taken note of everything I want and among those things is another child. I don’t want that child to face the same hardships my daughter does with my ex and I divorced, so I’ll be very discriminating and settle for nothing less than what will make me happy. This I will seek with every bit of energy I have.
Lastly I will do everything in my power to become the best person that I am. Is that a little confusing? Probably, but what I mean is that I know who I am, but often find myself afraid to be me. This year I will overcome that and be who I know I am. I’m going to be me for the first time in my life and that started today.
Now that I’ve shared my resolutions with you, I’d like to encourage you to share your resolutions with me and everybody else. Far more of you regularly read my blog than comment, and now I’d like to invite you to join in and motivate each other. What are you’re resolutions? How do you plan to accomplish them? Please share and help each other through this next year.
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January 7th, 2010 at 11:22 pm
excellent goals. i have many similar goals myself. I hope to enrich my life in many ways in the coming new year, and hope the success i’ve had in 2009 will only continue to grow more
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January 9th, 2010 at 5:42 pm
Your last two posts really resonate with me. I can talk to strangers easily enough, but I space out when I do and come away without understanding what we just talked about. This is the worst over the phone. Good luck on your resolutions.
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January 17th, 2010 at 11:26 pm
Ah uncertainty! The magic word!
I am in CBT treatment and it seems like everything I do is to get me comfortable with uncertainty.
I really hope you keep on a good streak, will keep reading this blog.
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